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Jun 19, 2010 13:49:13 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 13:49:13 GMT -5
Addison gave a small smile as she walked closer to one of the drawers in the room where all the supplies were kept. She grabbed a bandaid and went to her daughter to remove the IV and help her out of bed. She took her lab coat off and held it out to Alicia. "We don't have time for you to change and there is no way in hell I'm letting you leave here with your ass exposed to the world with that gown so..." she hinted.
Alicia took it and put it on. She followed Addison toward the door but stopped when she stopped short of an exit. "What?" she asked, turning back to the room assuming she had forgotten something.
"Your father is coming down the hall." Addison whispered, realizing that her plan had failed. "Okay, new plan of action. I open the door, you run. Got it?" she asked, turning to her daughter, expecting to hear a quick answer.
"Where the hell am I suppose to go?!" she demanded. "I've not been out of the house, I don't know why way around the city or this hospital."
"I would give you my car key but you're too young to know how to drive.."Addison began thinking aloud. "You can't survive on your own if I was to give you cash..You know what? Screw all that. I've got two hundred in the breast pocket and car keys in one of the other two. It doesn't matter what you do, just get the hell out of here."
"You're gonna lie, you realize that right? Like... this is it for you and you're doing this all for a kid you don't even know." Alicia pointed out. "You could be the one to make a break for it and I could stay here, ya' know. That might be a more logical way of doing this."
"That is the stupidest suggestion I have ever heard." Addison answered. "Derek Shepherd is your father, he was one floor up in an on-call from last I saw him. If you don't know what to do go find him. I'm sure he'll stop being an ass for two seconds, realize that it really is you and help you out. But if you don't leave now, we're both dying so..." she pulled the door open and pushed her daughter out, only to have a gun pressed to her head two seconds later.
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 14:10:48 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 14:10:48 GMT -5
Addison took a deep breath and cringed as the man grabbed her roughly by the arm and jabbed a seriange into her arm. It was the most odd sensation she had ever had in her entire life. She was paralized, but still consious. She could still see and hear everything that was going on around her. She could still feel the pain in her back where she had hit the floor, could still feel the cold of the floor as he ripped her clothes off and left her laying there while he locked the door, the pain of him as he forced himself ontop of her, and then the heavyness of his body as he forced himself inside of her. The pain it caused as he ripped her. The emptyness that it created inside of her. She never knew that she could feel so empty and so lost and still be alive. She hand't felt that bad before in her life. Not when Derek left her, not when her aughter was taken, not ever, but now as she lay there on the floor unable to move, she couldn't bear the sensation of the pain. Tears fell down her cheeks, she was unable to talk unable to think, and after what seemed like hours he was finished, and threatning her, if she ever spoke a word of this he would kill her, and her child, that this was the final thing he had to do, to proove himself serious. He stood up and got dressed, and then after making sure that the door was still locked from the inside left the room and disapeared from the scene.
She couldn't move, but wen she finally could she got up, and got dressed again. Remembering that it wasn't only her that she had to worry about, remembering that no matter how awful she felt, her duaghter had lived through this for the last 12 years. She needed her mother.
She waundered the halls, it was like she was in a trance, but then something odd happened. her pager, which was attatched to her scrub bottoms, started going off, and when she looked at it she realized that it was her cell phone number calling her. She went to the nurses station and called her phone back, to hear her daughter frantic on the other line.
"He wouldn't help me!" She screamed into the phone. "He said that I didn't exist and that I was a lunic and I swear he tried to get me treated for a mental evaluation!" She exclaimed.
"Calm down." Addison said in a numb tone. "where are you?"
"The corner of 10th and Washington." She exclaimed , her voice watery. "the Coffee shop."
"I will be there. Stay there don't leave." Addison demanded.
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 14:25:56 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 14:25:56 GMT -5
Before leaving the hospital she changed her clothes, she didn't have time to shower despite the fact that she was desperate to. She changed into a clean pair of scrubs and took off to the coffee shop down the block. As soon as she walked into the coffee shop she saw her daughter standing there aimlessly in a group of people.
"You're alive!" She exclaimed in relief. "What the hell is a latte? I tried to order something and the guy suggested a latte but I have no idea what the hell it is. What if it's made with donkey pee or something?"
"It's not made of donkey piss, Alicia. This is Starbucks, they are worth millions, maybe billions. They wouldn't put urine in your drink for fun and face a lawsuit." Addison assured numbly. "I didn't really hear you on the phone, my mind was somewhere else. Did Derek tell you to come here and call me?"
Alicia shook her head. "He thinks I'm lying about being your kid and I'm doing it because apperently I'm stocking you and know you have some trust fund and I want the money. And he says you're being stupid for falling for it and that he's not gonna be an idiot too." she answered. "So what do we do now? What him to...him? What did he do?"
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 14:41:31 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 14:41:31 GMT -5
"What do you want to do?" She asked her daughter. "I was thinking we will get on the first flight to LA, I have friends and a summer house there. You'll be safe from the duche bag who stole you." The thoughts from the days events overwhelmed her and she cringed as her stomach did a involentary flip flop making her sure she was going to vomit.
"What's up with you?" Alicia asked suspeciously.
"Stomachache" Addison lied with a convincing smile at her daughter. "Are you ready to go?" She asked her.
"I didn't even get my latte yet! " Alicia whined.
"forget it. I will buy you 100 lattes when we get to LA." She said. "And a new pair of shoes." She said looking down at her daughter who for the first time she realized was wearing a scruffy pair of jeans, and shoes with holes in the toes., although she was clean it looked like she hand't been shopping in several years, if ever.
"I took my bag with me, (she said gesturing to the small rugged backpack on the floor near a table. ) I changed in the bathroom." She said. "Your doctor jacket is in my bag."
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 15:00:13 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 15:00:13 GMT -5
"Whatever, Alicia, I don't care about that right now. You could tear it into shreds and burn it for all I care." Addison answered, taking the car key which her daughter held out to her.
"I don't know how I managed to drive a while block, it was the scariest thing I've ever done." she admitted with a smug grin, pointing the car which was horribly parked in the middle of traffic flow. *In the plane*
"You're really quiet." Alicia abserved, looking over at her mother who was staring out the window at that dark midnight sky. Addison didn't respond, she just continued staring out. "Do you like...not like me enough to talk to me yet?" she joked, when hearing no responce she figured to add that in. "I'm kidding. Most people don't risk their lives for people they don't like. I just figured we would talk, ya know? I know you're my mother, I get that, but I don't really know you and you don't know me. I don't want it to be wierd."
Addison slowly turned away from the window to look at her. She looked emotionless and tired, she still refused to speak. All she could do was stare at her daughter.
"I've never been on a plane, before. It's kinda cool." Alicia smiled. "But I think you figured that out because you're a doctor and you're not stupid. You'd be able to put two and two and know that I can't be on a plane if I've never left the house....I wanna go to disneyland? Can we do go to Disneyland? Isn't it like...in LA."
"Shut up." Addison begged harshly. "Just shut the fuck up for two minutes, please. I can't even hear myself think with all your talking! I've been up for 40 hours, I know it's only a two hour flight but two hours of sleep is more than none and I can't do that with you talking! I just need to forget all of this ever happened and you keep talking and asking and I can't! So shut up! For two minutes, just shut the fuck up."
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 15:51:09 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 15:51:09 GMT -5
Alicia looked up at her mother, just great, she had left a home of people that hate her to run away to someone who hates her just as much. Someone who couldn't even bother to make polite conversation on the plane or give her the satisfaction of a smile or something. She sank back in her chair, taking her mother's iphone from her purse, putting the headphones in and playing with it until she figured out how to make the music work, then turning it up on full volume and closing her eyes, beginning to regret ever running away with Addison in the first place.
After what seemed like an eternity they were at the house and the environment was just as cold as the ocean water that was crashing against the beach outside. Addison had half heartily showed Alicia where she would be sleeping and then sat down in the kitchen taking a bottle of wine from the cabinet and pouring herself a glass.
"What are you looking at me like that for ? " She asked Alicia, noticing for the first time that her daughter was staring at her like she had not just spent two hours in close quarters in a plane with her.
Alicia said nothing, and continued to stare.
"What? Are you hungry?" She asked her her tone unemotional all she wanted was to stay in the shower until she scrubbed so hard that her skin bled and to crawl into her nice warm bed and pretend that nothing ever happened.
"Why do you care?" Alicia asked. "it's not like you've done anything to prove to me that you care. Your being a bitch."
"If your not hungry than go to bed." Addiosn said too numb to take in her daughters words. "it's late, you start school in the morning. BED!" she said, yelling the last word and causing Alicia to jump.
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 16:05:59 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 16:05:59 GMT -5
The next morning Addison had over slept, the plans of enrolling her daughter in school had gone right out the window. She walked downstairs to see Alicia sleeping on the couch with her leg hanging off the edge. The bottle of wine she had only emptied half way was now completly empty and on the floor with an empty bag of Lays on the table near it.
She picked up the trash to throw it away when she heard the someone knock on the door. After throwing it away she went to answer it and was attacked with a loud squeal from Naomi, who instantly took her into her arms. "You could have called if you were coming! Sam thought someone broke into your house!" he exclaimed. "Why is someone sleeping on your couch?"
"It's Alicia, Nai." Addison answered, walking to the kitchen to make coffee after she had let Naomi in. "Things have not gone too well so far. I have no idea what I'm doing." she admitted. Alicia's eyes opened and saw a woman standing not too far away. "Alicia, this is my best friend Naomi."
"Are you guys the founding members of the American Society of Bitches?" Alicia responded while she sat up, eyeing the wormen carefully. Addison gave her a glare, doing the best she could to be a decent mother and hold back on her overly harsh tongue. "Or do are you like the Witches of Eastwick or something along those lines?"
Naomi turned to Addison in shock. She's pictured Alicia to be a perfect, sweet innocent little girl. She had obviously been wrong.
"Depends." Addison answered. "Are you the reincranation of the devil? Here to make my life as difficult as humanly possible before I slit my wrists and come back to haunt you."
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 16:39:26 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 16:39:26 GMT -5
"She's a bitch, I guess she gets it from the best." She said shrugging as she took a deep breath and gave her daughter an evil look. She realized that her skin was still scrubbed practically raw from the last nights four hour bath as the wind from outside reached her and stung her scrubbed arms and legs. She ushered Naomi inside and closed the door behind her.
"Addison!" Naomi exclaimed, but Addison shook her head. She imagined what it would be like if her daughter was more like Maya, the sweet, innocent lovable little girl. The one who never got into trouble, who never spoke so ill to her mother. How great her life would have been if none of this drama had ever happened.
"I might be a bitch but at least I didn't inherriate the whore genes." Alicia said, standing up, and realizing that she was quite hungover from drinking the half of a bottle of whine. She sat back down, realizing that if she didn't she was going to hurl all over Addison's 2.5 thousand dollar egyptian rug, but as she thought about it it didn't seem like that bad of a plan.
"Says who? Your 13 and your not even a virgin. I wouldn't be suprised if you've been pregnant once or twice." Addison retorted back glaring at her daughter as if she wished her ultra bitch stare would kill her in her place.
" I haven't been a virgin since I was three years old . I was raped for the first time when I was six. I was beaten three times a day for the last 10 years. Don't talk to me about being a whore when it's your fault I was in that situation, If you would have done your fucking job and been a parent It wouldn't have happened. Don't you DARE talk to me about sex."
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Jun 19, 2010 16:52:29 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 16:52:29 GMT -5
Naomi awkward slipped out the door unnoticed. She didn't want to be in the middle of the arguement the duo was having, figuring they needed their privacy and she would give Addison a few tips about being maternal later.
Meanwhile Addison's glare remained on her daughter. She gave an incredously chuckle before answering, "You're right, it is my fault. I should have gotten that abortion I had planned on. I shouldn't have fallen for your father's stupid confession of eternal love and how the only thing that we were missing to be perfect was a baby as proof of our uncontrolable passion. Well guess what?! He left me, okay? He didn't even bother to come see you after finding out you were in the same hospital as him. He didn't want to help you when you begged for it. He lied to me when he told me he'd help me raise you no matter what. I should have gotten that fucking abortion and we wouldn't even be here right now!" Addison yelled. "I wouldn't have been in Seattle, I wouldn't have come across you and I wouldn't have gotten raped to give you a life of freedom. So yeah, you're right... this is my fault."
"I uh..." Alicia began to stutter. She had no idea how to respond to what her mother had just told her. She stood still and dropped her eyes down onto the ground, creating a think air of silence between the two of them. "You wanted to abort me?" she asked sadly, it had never crossed her mind that she could have been unwanted as a baby. She thought no one wanted her in present time, she didn't know she was unwanted from the very beginning.
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Jun 19, 2010 17:58:20 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 17:58:20 GMT -5
"Alicia, I'm sorry I should have said that." They had stood there in silence for a while before she had actually spoken up.
"But you wanted to say it, It's true?" Alicia asked. Sinking down onto the couch. Addison sat down beside her. She didn't know how she needed to explain this to her daughter. How could she explain that she didn't want her to begin with, but then she realized how much she loved her once she was born only to have her taken away from her again a year later.
"I was going to get an abortion. I was a medical student/intern. I was working 150 hour weeks, I couldn't stop being a surgeon to play mommy. And then your father convinced me that he loved me, and that he would help me raise you so that I wouldn't have to do it on my own, and It began to be ok. I started getting use to the idea of being pregnant and having to be a parent. Your father, was my main competitor in school. I was the top student and he was right below me. He USED you as a low blow to get me out of the game. He acted like he cared until it was too late for me to get an abortion, until i was already involve with being your mommy, and then he left me. he denied that he was your father. and left. He didn't even come to the hospital when you were born. "
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 18:21:20 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 18:21:20 GMT -5
"Wow, that's the most lame explanation you could have ever come up with. I would expect you to be a little bit more creative." Alicia answered, pulling away from her mother. "If you can lie about being raped and keep a straight face than I'd expect you to be able to think up a better story then 'he used me'."
"You think I'm lying?!" Addison blared loudly in outrage. "Why would I lie about being raped? What thrill would that give me?! Why would I tell you of all people? I figured your my daughter, no matter how horrible your relationship might be I should be able to confide in you and vise versa."
"You might just be an attention whore." Alicia suggested convincingly. "You could have just said it because you thought I'd feel bad for you and stop torturing you. That maybe I would walk on eggshells around you and stop annoying you as often as you claim I annoy you. I may not know how to read or write and I may not even have a first grade education but I invented the guilt game."
"You don't know how to read or write?!" Addison asked in shock.
"I taught myself little bit but, no, I don't know how to read of write too well." Alicia answered. "So if I was to get lost I would not be able to read a map and find my way back. I can barely get through a Dr. Suess book. So lay off with your sophisticated graduate school vocabulary!"
"We are not going to be able to get along even if we wanted to." Addison realized, getting up from the couch and pacing the room back and forth. "You refuse to live the way I would have raised you and I refuse to let you live the way you've been raised."
"Maybe I could just go back to Washington and find my dad." Alicia responded. "He might even be looking for me. He may have tortured me but I'm all he has, I'm sure he wouldn't just forget about me and move on. There has to be a reason he took me from you."
"Alicia, I'm not going to let you leave just because I can't figure out how to make all of this work. You are not going back there." Addison stated firmly. "You are never going to be abused ever again, you're not going be locked in a house and treated like a sex slave. You're 13, you've got a lot to learn, you've got your whole life ahead of you."
"Well, it's not up to you." Alicia answered before walking out the front door.
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Jun 19, 2010 18:45:18 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 18:45:18 GMT -5
" I don't want to talk Naomi!" Addison exclaimed as she opened the door to find her best friend standing there, a basket of chocolate muffins in her arms. It had been two weeks since Alicia has stormed out of the house and the police still had no leads on where she was.
"If you want to talk, or don't want to talk it doesn't matter, I'm coming in and you are going to eat one of these chocolate muffins and your going to like it." Naomi said "And your going to be pleasant about it."
"To someone who all but forced themselves into my house?"
"I didn't force myself you let me in."
"Ok your right I did let you in. " Addison said sitting down on the couch and taking a sip of the wine in her glass. Naomi took the glass from her and poured the wine out in the kitchen sink.
"You do know it's morning right?" Naomi asked and Addison rolled her eyes at her. Naomi eyed the wine bottles that littered the coffee table, the floor and the mantle. "How bought I just kick you in the liver, It's a lot quicker and less painful."
"Damn, i guess I am going to be firing Sydney. She was suppose to clean up. That's what I'm paying her for afterall. " She looked around at the empty bottles and then She took a muffin and took a bite of it. The chocolate melted in her mouth, it had been the first thing she had eaten in like 2 days. Not because she was trying to starve herself, but just because she had replaced food with booze and with the booze she had numbed herself from everything that had happened.
"You've got to stop this Addison."
"You can't make me do anything I don't want to do. And right now I am going to eat all of these muffins and get really reallly fat. I am going to get really fat and eat all of these muffins, just until I come up with a better plan. "
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 18:56:56 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 18:56:56 GMT -5
"Getting fat is not a plan until you can come up with a better plan." Naomi answered. "Getting fat is an excuse to get out of doing something you should be doing. And right now, you're giving up. I have no idea what happen to you, Addie. The Addison Montgomery I knew never quit, she didn't even know what quit means. It's like you're a whole different person."
"I'm not Addison Montgomery anymore. I'm Addison Shepherd and you never really got to know Addison when she became a Shepherd so I'll teach you something about her. Addison Shepherd gives up."
"And apparently she talks about herself in third person...which might I add is a little bit weird." Naomi answered. "Do you wanna a get a job? You could use an excuse to get out of the house and do something to keep you busy. It doesn't have to be anything with a lot of commitment, maybe get privileges at St. Ambrose and do a surgery once a week. Or if you want you could come by to the practice once in a while and deliver a baby or something."
"I don't wanna get off my ass, Nia. On top of being a quitter, Addison Shepherd also happens to be lazy." she answered. "Will you leave me alone so I could dwell in my misery without having to share it with you?"
"Addison Shepherd is not lazy! I may not know her that well but I know that she's an amazing world renowned surgeon and you don't get there by being lazy. And another thing about this Addison Shepherd, I know that the Montgomery in her is still alive and Montgomeries are tough bitches that never back out of a fight. I could call your mother and have her give you a lesson if you've forgotten."
"Why did I bother to come here? I could have gone to the Hamptons and been away from everyone I know. And then my kid would have no where to run to and I wouldn't be in this mess."
"You didn't go to the Hamptons because you wanted to have someone by you to help you out. You may think I don't know you too well but I do. I know you better than you wanna admit. And FYI, Addison Montgomery and Addison Shepherd are the same person. You just have to stop wallowing in your self misery and loathe to see it."
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Nine
Jun 19, 2010 19:28:14 GMT -5
Post by Addison on Jun 19, 2010 19:28:14 GMT -5
"Listen here Addison. You are going to get up out of bed and get dressed. And get your ass active. I am NOT going to sit around and watch you waste away because you are too depressed to take care of yourself."
"I'm not in bed i'm on the couch."
"Same difference, get up, and get dressed or I am going to force you to ."
"Oh you are are you?" Addison said raising her eyebrow in a doubtful manner.
"Oh I will and you will NOT like it." Naomi promised, playfully showing her mussels " I pretty strong." She said in all seriousness.
"You couldn't get me off of this couch if you tried." Addison said, forgetting that Naomi was the one who beat her up in Medical school when she had thought that she had slept with Sam, she had forgotten that Naomi is 3x stronger than she is.
"Don't make me treat you like a child." Naomi sighed. She walked closer to Addison and grabbed her by the arm, pulling her much to her struggle against her will up off of the couch and out the door. Addison struggled against Naomi for about five minutes once outside, and not being in her clear mind because of the two week long binge drinking session, she let Naomi control the direction she was moving , and without realizing what she was doing, she stepped backwards, felt Naomi's hands shoving her backwards, and fell into the swimming pool. 5,000 dollar dry-clean only dress and all.
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Jun 19, 2010 19:40:52 GMT -5
Post by cutebutboring on Jun 19, 2010 19:40:52 GMT -5
"This was Prada, dickface!" Addison exclaimed the second her head made it out of the water. She watched Naomi's face in shot. "And I'd pull you in here with me but you don't know how to swim and I refuse to have the guilt of murder added to everything else going on in my life." she assured, grabbing onto the bordering rim of the pool to pull herself up.
"It's okay, I'm sure you have one just like in your closet which you bought on a separate day without realizing that you already have one. Speaking of which, we really need to check the inventory of your closets at all thirty of the houses to your name."
"Let's not try to which this into one of those fluffy happy get togethers." Addison answered. "I'm not going through my closets, I'm not gonna have a pillow fight with you and we're not going to throw each other in pools. We're not in a porn movie...Not that I really know what goes on in the porn movie."
"We know, everyone who went to med school with us knows. You don't need to watch it, you just do it. Now all of us are that lucky, some of us didn't have boyfriends in school."
"Naomi, shut up." Addison snapped. "I don't wanna talk about my sex life with Derek or medical school and clothes. I just got raped, okay? I don't know where my daughter is. She'd been missing for 12 years, I finally get her back and less than two days later she's gone. Don't make it seem like my life is so much better than yours. At the very least, you know were your kid is."
"You're making it seem like you're a lost cause."
"Maybe I am."
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